"because , my heart is crying for help."

to think it could hurt this much , to this extent.

 it felt just like your heart was really brokened , shattered into pieces and the pain lingers from the inside.maybe because that someone had already went deep down to the bottom of your heart.
none of my personal physical pain can compare to this feeling.

the feeling of losing someone that's equally important to yourself and your life , really kills people.
i felt this way , i wonder if the feeling is mutual or not. when you're just totally down , there's no way you could do anything right. i went to gym for basically nothing today. what do you want when you're feeling down and under? a hug? a kiss? a tap on your shoulder? or just being alone? or even some words to heal your heart? what you want is what others wants too.

when i was done with my gym today , opposite the petrol station's busstop.
a small kid that was holding his mum's hand dropped his water bottle in the middle of the road.
i swear it's damn dangerous. they both moved on to the opposite side. the first thing that strucked my mind (like always) was to pick up the water bottle for them. they had 2 lives , i had only one. without any hesitation , i ran to the road and picked up the bottle for them. it was dangerous , but i didn't even care.
maybe because i was just down , i didn't think too much. but anyway when i passed the bottle to his mum and she kept thanking me instead. maybe i was borned to do this , i like it. all the people inside the busstop had their eyes on me. i didn't care because i was just happy. kai told me it's dangerous for me.
but ; i smiled.

life is not totally about you and your ownself.
it's about others too ; maybe one small move can change their lives.
one small move , i can change my own life too.
things just needs to get better , the world will be a better world to live in.
be selfless.