yes and i'm feeling really stress recently , more problems coming up. i should be able to go through it , maybe because i'm already numbed my all that family matters.
just like i'm trapped in a dark cell , i don't know when is my releasing date.
when is my sentence. everything was put on hold , crying for help. but to no avail.
a twist or a turn in my life is really needed , family matters is enough to kill.

all of us means alot to mel , he was a great friend to be with.
he bottled up all his feelings to himself , feelings about us.
his worries for us even though we're not his next of kin.
will any tom dick and harry worry so much for us?
it's people around us like mel , who will worry for us and for our future.
he told me something really heartfelt when he was drunked.
he knows that i always complained to him that i am poor etc bla bla family problems.
he told me that he had seen people that's poor become rich too. 
i paused and i almost cried , trying to hide my emotions.
because i heard him from my heart , my vision blurred immediately.
it's really hard to find a friend that really knows something from deep inside your heart
and encouraging you pulling you up when you really need that hand.

thanks mel. i'll always remember what you told me
you had your own worries too , we all know.
tell us when you need us , we'll all be there for you. :)