deserve it or not?

is it more? or is it lesser? trying to keep everything as balanced as possible.
i know it's hard , but i'm still doing my best.
another side of me is devouring me once again. hate it so much.

didn't spend much time with you today , merely just sending you home.
but it's better than nothing. :) we'll have more to come. glad that you've enjoyed yourself today

i don't feel like i'm me this few days , wonder what's wrong.
should look at every single things with an open mind and heart.

i admire people that don't look down on people , even if they're of very high status or very rich.
that's what i aim to be when i grow up. even if you're rich or high status doesn't mean you can stample on people's pride. pride is something that money can't even buy. don't look down on people , because you won't know when you will be down too! everybody is equal , we're of no position to look down on them. they don't owe us anything , so we shouldn't give them or others side eyes.
just smile and the world will be a better world. 

21th i'll be going genting with my baby and her family. :) excited and looking forward to it.
we'll spend great times there , leaving fond memories of us. that leaves us one more great thing to think back and smile.

you will be the only one in my eyes.